Wednesday, June 07, 2006

In Shadow


I am often semi-awake before the alarm clock rings. It never fails to mesmerize me, this special time before I fully awake. The world sits in shadow and my senses are caught between reality and the edge of dream. Then the harsh buzzing of the alarm tears me from this wonderful state. I always slap the snooze at least once and many times more in order to return to the warm embrace of the shadow. The kiss of an angel, the passion of a demon, life, death, love, lust, passion; they all seem so close in this shadow land of the mind at rest.

In these boxes of times punctuated by slaps of the snooze bar, I think of her. Sometimes pirate wench, sometimes stripper, sometimes mythical creature of beauty but always with me in this land of shade. She tempts me to stay in this land between dream and the waking world.

This land is but illusion for I can not walk in these dreams. The harsh light of day beckons and I must face it as I must. But the day can not last forever and again I shall return at days end and heed the call of the shadow and once more feel her embrace.

22 comments:

Ranea said...

That was beautiful Fuzz. One question, the temptress in your dreams, is she the same woman just in different roles. Or is she someone different each night?

Mimi said...

I love that place. When I am there I want to stay forever.

Great writing Fuzz!

whoami929 said...

That was a great post! It's a little overcast here today and I was late for work because I couldn't get out of bed. Once I read your post I concluded that my tardiness was totally worth the extra minutes I spent in bed.

:P fuzzbox said...

ranea: She has changed through the years but she is the same woman in my dreams.

mimi: It is a nice place. I am glad you liked it.

whoami: Thanks, it is different from my usual posts. It is nice not to pigeonhole myself and let something different out. I'm glad you got to sleep in. Sometimes we owe it to ourselves.

Green Eyes said...

I loved this post, Fuzz! Wow...

I'm a snooze hitter, too, lol, every morning I could easily fall right back to sleep, if only I was able.

Sherri said...

This is my absolute favorite part of the day!

Big D said...

You know what I like?

Pie.

:P fuzzbox said...

green eyes: Thanks, I say that I would sleep in if I could but on the weekends I still wake up at the same ungodly hour but at least I can lie there and drowse in and out of sleep.

sherri: And it is much cooler!

big d: I prefer cake. To each his own.

siren said...

Great post, Fuzz. A very poetic way to capture that space between your concious and subconcious mind.

:P fuzzbox said...

Well it looks as if Blogger is back from hiatus to let me comment back to you Siren. Thanks so much for being far too kind. I don't know what is worse my fucktard posts or my sappy ones. At least my sappy ones are infrequent.

RAVEN the PITA said...

You fart in your sleep don't you?

michaelm said...

Nice look at the dawning of the dreamworld, Fuzz.
The ending of the R.E.M. phase of sleep is wonderful. I remember the time I woke after dreaming of Tyra Banks. Damn, I didn't want to get up.
But maybe the darker side of me sides with BigD...
Great post, dude.

~m

Jim said...

could I rent space in your head. I was thinking of vacationing in Florida this year but your psyche might be a better trip

Crazy Dan said...

great poetry, been to San Francisco lately?

:P fuzzbox said...

pita: No comment.

michael: What's dark about liking pie?

jim: It might be more like a vacation to a mental ward than Florida.

cd: Nope, Listening to Slipknot lyrics.

Keshi said...

Nice one...just as the day doesnt last that long, the dream doesnt sleep that long...

Keshi.

Gerald Ford said...

Amen, brother! My snooze button is pretty warn out from repeatedly pressing it, until I am an hour late for work. :(

Stupid work schedules.

I do know that experience when I awake early in the morning (like 3am or so), and I am half-dreaming. For some reason thoughts are more vivid then. Some good, some not so good.

Catch said...

oh Fuzz I know where your comin from....I am the champion snooze hitter....got callouses to prove it...lol. Its such a nice warm cozy place between waking and sleeping...like a warm bath.

:P fuzzbox said...

keshi: That is too true.

gerald ford: They are more vivid then but most of the time the images fade too soon at first light. Thanks for dropping in. I appreciate it!

catch: With big bubbles and a fresh scent.

The Phoenix said...

I'm happy every time I wake up. It means I'm alive for the time being.

Laurie said...

Gah! I can finally leave a comment!! What was UP with blogger???

Anyway... love your description.. I think the only thing that I think of between smacking that effin' snooze alarm is, "please don't make me get up..." LOL

:P fuzzbox said...

phoenix: I rather nice outlook indeed.

laurie: It is a rather harsh task master.